Here i am expressing all out from the bottom of my heart. Life is like a living hell for me. Im loosing my heart out. I just dont know why it happen to me. Yes maybe i used to be a player, Contacting alot of girls at one time. The word faithful was never in my dictionary but till i found you, everything change. The only word going on my head was you. Since knowing you for two month plus, i never had in mind of lying or cheating on you. Slowly the word faithful came inside my head. At the moment i realised you change me alot & i keep asking you for the same question. But yet it wasnt the right time.

It really hurts me when people telling me you're talking on the phone with him. You didnt even tell me a thing till i get my own information. The reason you dont want to tell me was you're scared im gonna get hurt. But you didnt even think how im going to feel when i know it. It hurts me even more when i got to know from other people's mouth.

Till this worst fight, i became moody. Didnt even talk to my friends. Sitting all alone with no one to share all my problems with. After something happened & im not gonna elaborate here. I dont even know where i am. I didnt even went for my appointment & i didnt eat my medicine for two days. Finally my friends found me & the first word came out from my mouth was asking where are you. Maybe my friend told you what happened to me, yes my ribs is really bad but all i care now its you. Im wondering, when im away, did you call me? Did you make an effort to find me? I dont know, so its up to you tell me honestly.

& now everythings settle. I hope you really hold on to the promise you made. Im sorry if something in me going to change. Hopefully nothing will change alright. I dont know how we gonna meet now. Just wait for the time. I really miss you alot. I wont say i love you, cause i know i will get nothing in return. I dont wanna make fool of myself. So yeah for now, imy. ❤

Labels: 5th june

read my mind between silence and sound.❤ 12:39 AM