Ready, Steady & Rock !

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2010-03-26T02:57:00.004+08:00

Life Is Art , Straight from the Heart .

I don't know why i feel like blogging. Maybe i should. Life's being just fine for me after those complicated things. I hate to say this but I'm already over it. With my friends beside me, Its time for me to start a new live. Yes single is the best status but maybe for awhile. Someone asked me am i on dating, my answer on that is Idk. For me to know & for you to find out alright. :)

Nothing much done this week. Training on Monday & Wednesday. The rest of the training was cancel due to the weather. The bad news is there's a beep test this Saturday. Sometimes, its good to take advises from someone who have more experienced than us. So I'm taking those advises just to improve myself & go to another level.

Have anyone watched Whip It? Cause I'm gonna watch it this Saturday. Maybe Pool before that & sheesha or drinking session after movies. Maybe while having those session we'll playing blackjack, Zul's favourite game. hahhah. So anyone wanna join just give me a call. Till here.

2010-03-16T21:48:00.003+08:00

Back to Square one.

But something i just cant accept. I just got to say this. The post on Monday, March 15, 2010, 1:28 PM. You said that, " Tell me why do you want me back ? " at the first place, whose the one that want us to get back? Whose the one who asking me to patch back & continue this relationship? & now u asking me That question ? So you're trying to say that i am the one who desperately want you back?

and secondly, you said "Boy, you want to enter but without me." I dint said that. I told you, if you wanna enter, you enter with your girlfriends & i enter with my guy friends. But you decided to get drunk. Its your Choice. Yes, i did dance with other girls. The reason is you happily drunk with guys, why not i happily dance inside with girls. right?

Lastly, you told feshal that u were weak & u need to go to the hospital? In fact you're lying. Don't ever lied to me just to get my attention or care. Cause i know whats happening. I got lots of friends too alright.

2010-02-09T23:11:00.003+08:00

Maybe its time to update my blog. Maybe this is the right time to update it. & this post will be a short one. The zerosixelevenzeronine ends here.

Still cant accept it. to many chances & you didn't take it seriously. take good care & goodbye. Sometimes, goodbye is a way to say I Love You & come back soon. Hope you're not speechless by your own words. Anyway thanks for everything. I really do appreciate it.

& now its the time to hit the town & start mingling.

2009-10-13T01:13:00.003+08:00

Putting a fake smile everywhere i go.

act to be alright infront of all my friends when im not.

no efforts will be put to my soccer match tomorrow.

nothing will be fine starting from now. Im too careless.

Why am i so stupid. I just dont have the intention to hurt you.

I cant bare to look at myself anymore.
the more i look inside of me, the more i see myself as a heartless monster.
i really wish that i could just disappear so no one can ever find me.
i really wish that i didn’t even exist so that i would not have hurt the people around me.

I really don’t know what to think anymore.
im just down & out.
only you knew how i feel.
only you knew what im thinking of.

i knew you were worth loving.

im just a heartless monster.

2009-10-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

What im going say about might be selfish but i still have to do it.
i really want out.
i really can’t take this roller coaster ride, it really making me miserable and the more i stay in it, the more i get sick.
i been really patience with you but it seems that i’m not being appreciated.
i really can’t take this any longer.
Can we work things out now?

Its now or never.

2009-10-09T01:46:00.007+08:00

you're not home yet .
i feel worried about you. where could you have been?
your parents are worried about you so am i.
your father is sick, how selfish can you be.
people told me you took those junks.
where's the promise?
i promise you nothing will happen to me, then how about yours?
you're enjoying your moment outside

and im here waiting for your call.
im just a piece of trash for you.
Im speechless.

Now i realise how insecure i am.
i really don’t know why i’m being like this but i think you wont acccept me at all.
i can’t bare to lose any one i love anymore.
i know this may sound stupid but it’s the fact.
why must people go away.
i really don’t want to live my life on my own anymore.
i really need someone now.
i know it really sound desprate but i just need a change.
i need something positive to pull me through the hardship of life that i faced.
and thats you.

This is me.

posting with all my heart,
Harryden .

2009-10-07T23:39:00.004+08:00

hey today is Wednesday & tomorrow is my finalised trial. Will i take it seriously or i just gonna play around tomorrow. Or maybe i'll not be coming tomorrow. Im just not sure. If i wanna play well, i wanna try to be captain of the team. Its not because of showing off or stuffs. Its just because of my GPA point. No more paikia life for me. Its no because of im scared. Its because i got something i need to achieve first. & that is my soccer career.

to the spammers at my tagboard, dont be a kid will you. Youre matured enough. theres no need to spam or be a cyber gangster at my tagboard. I just dont need this type of people here at my blog. If you think im in a wrong, then just say it infront of my face. theres no need to spam here. Every people have their problems of themselves. Its just up to them to let it out or just kept it inside.

Went to geylang just now with raudhah. When i alight the bus, there was one matrep with his girlfriends. That matrep was looking at me & all i did was smile in good way. That guy smiled back at me & his girlfriend was like smiling at me all the way before i smiled at the guy. How nice can i be right. :)

After buying her stuff for her dad, we went to eat at Kfc but she didnt finished it. At first she told me she was hungry, in the end she just eat 1/2 of the food. What a waste bby. Meet sharin, aluq & iwan at grandlink. Played pool & karaoke. Had soo much fun today. Now watching the tv show called The Moment of Truth. I wonder what if im in it & i cant hide anymore secrets from my family , friends & her. Oh fcuk how worst can it be. Hmmm. Honey, if this show is in singapore, i suggest you need to be in it. There's just too many secrets you're keeping from me. you know it yourself.

I've not been asking you those question for this months.

maybe not at all.

2009-10-06T00:51:00.003+08:00

What a tiring day today. Slept at 4am & woke up at 7am just to go for Combine West training. Yet its not finalised. So im not sure if i'll get selected for the 1st team Ite Combine West. If im not selected for the 1st team, it means i'll get in the 2nd team. Todays training was against Ite East. Yeah the second team got trash by the ite east's first team. & the first trash their second team too. But the thing is, the both first team didnt agaisnt each other. Weird. Im always ready to against their first team. So yeah the squad will be finalised by this thursday. If it wasnt for the GPA points, i wont be playing. :)

Someone told me that they saw my name at elly's tagboard saying " i love you .... " . To the people who did that, come on laa, her blog is private how am i supposed to tag without she inviting me. & the other thing is i just dont want that person to get it wrong. I dont even know her. The person who tag that seriously wasnt me. Im not invited in your blog, obviously its someone that you've invite before. This is the third time people have been using my name to get to know girls or do some fcuking stuff that i didnt do at all. Whats the motive of using my name? Just to spoil my relationship or im just hotter than you till you dont wanna put your own name? Grow up pleasee..

Things went quite well today except for some parts. But we settle is with a nice way alright. You'll not be meeting me on Wednesday & maybe saturday too. alaaaa, tak best uh ginii! Nevermind as long as you know whats right & whats wrong alright love. lovelove. :)

2009-10-02T02:15:00.003+08:00

The key is to get to know people and trust them to be who they are. Instead, we trust people to be who we want them to be- and when they're not, we cry.

When one door of happiness closes another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that YOU just do not see the one which has been opened for you.

I just dont feel like today is a good day for me. Just have a great day to every decent people.

2009-10-02T01:56:00.005+08:00

Im too bored right now & my heart were like asking myself to read your past at your blog. & i read, it really turn me down. seriously down. The way you treat him, the way you care for him, the way you love him was totally different than how u're giving me right now. you said at ur past was "
you told me you still love me, you still want me but you just need a bit of time to for get the past. the you'll get back to me! how long must i wait? huh? after a few months? im hurt , really bad !~ i just hope u would make up ur mind, soonn..." thats how you feel when you waited for him right. tried re-feel that feelings & feel how i feel waiting for you for almost 4months now. You cant even wait for him & you asking me to wait for you. Its almost 4months kay raudhah. ask yourself, have you been giving me all like how you've been giving to him? you said at ur past " i dont think i can find another guy as good as him." im surprised raudhah. seriously i am. Maybe im not good enough for you. now i asking you this.
how long must i wait? huh? after a few months? im hurt , really bad !~ i just hope u would make up ur mind, soonn

you know i need you.. but it seems hard for you to accept me.

2009-09-29T01:51:00.003+08:00

hello decent people. I know i've not been updating due to some busy plans & staff. Well today is Tuesday, i will be having a Combine West Ite trial today at Ite Balestier. The problem is the trial is in the morning & im still here updating my blog. I'll be having a difficult time to wake up later. Just hoping i wont overslept & the other thing im hoping for is to get selected for the Combine West Ite. Its been a while since i kick a soccer ball at the soccer field. But never mind, i'll try my best. I know i can. :)

Yesterday, went for Jalan Raya with bby & friends. It was very tiring but yet it was fun. Kecoh sgt inside the bus. I didnt even count how much i get, all i do was just put the envelop inside bby's bag. We took alot of pictures. Some were at my handphones & some is at suhaila's camera. I the pictures badly. Iwan amek gambar darii matair ko linca²! Someone fall again just now. hahas maluu knn ~! & the other day u tried to trip me but in the end who's the one that fall at the butt. beloobby. bby, best minom soup with ice? :)) Loving you .

Still waiting for your answer, bbylove.

Soon it will be 4months. :(

2009-09-15T01:43:00.005+08:00

Yes i've read your post & this post is especially for you. Im sorry if this post hurts you.

Yes 3 Months have past so fast without us noticing it. Here i am still waiting for you. Your post, it does hurt me but you were expressing your feelings. Some people keep saying, im trying too hard just to be with you. I realised that too, raudhah. But i Never want to give up on you. The reason was you're the one who really change me. Change me to be a better guy & throw my old me attitude away. I never thought of waiting you this long or longer. But yet, im the one who make a smile came back on your face. Im the one who fix your broken heart. Im the one who always make you laugh. I really enjoy doing that in this 3months, bby. We've been arguing alot, but yet we settling it well. I just dont know if i were to wait for you any longer, raudhah. You will never be ready. You're just scared i'll be like some other guys you've been with. You just cant compare me with some other guys. Maybe one of this days i will be asking you my last & i mean last question. & if it still doesnt work out then thats it for us. Im sorry. Its not because of i just cant wait. It just i dont like the feeling of waiting for someone when you had done everything you can for her in this 3 month plus. Maybe i just cant wait no more. You know u've been giving me hopes each single days. You said you love & care bout me. But nowadays you never care about my feelings no more & youur love were like just fading away. Im confused & i just dont understand. Honey, eventhough we are not in relationship, we both act & do like we are in relationship. Being in relationship is just a status right, all we need to do is just find the perfect date to be in it.

Maybe for you 3 months is just a a split second but you didnt think about how i feel while waiting for you in those 3 months. The feeling sucks :(

I just expressing it out.

2009-09-11T15:38:00.003+08:00

Feel soo different living in this life style. I wonder where should i go now. Im not sure if im going for soccer training later or going geylang with her family. Still thinking. Soccer lifes suck for me right now. All i do was play for fun. Never thought of giving up in my everything. Didnt attend school for about 3 weeks now & next im still not going for school. Im just not interested right now. I just miss those time i went to school & those soccer trainings.

Things between me & her is already alright. We settle it nicely. Just hope we both kept on our promises. Some passerby tagged me said im just trying too hard to get you. am i ? Yes im trying my best to get u just because of loving you, but i didnt know im trying too hard to get you. I guess i am. haish im still wondering what to get for you on your birthday. You just wont expect it coming.

2009-09-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

Lifes for me will never be alright. Keep on not attending schools & training. Maybe im quiting my soccer club soon. I just dont feel like playing football for life now. I just dont know why. I just dont know what happen to me right now. I just dont know why my feelings change towards my soccer life. It used to be my everything but now its nothing for me.

I havent even sell my tickets for the St james event. After the big fight with you just now, im still wondering if you should go or not. If you can let the guys hug you behind my back, why cant i let a gurl grinding & take pictures with me behind your back? So anyone, see you in the club alright. Im not taking revenge, but you're too much, bby.

Saturday went out with you. Celebrate you & your friends birthday in advance. We celebrated the 3 months too. We did have fun together & with the rest too. But the happiness just last for 2 days & i saw this picture. The guy hugging you in the picture wasnt me. You said the picture was so long before but why is the date on the 24th august? Why didnt you just tell me the truth? You just took advantage of my trust. I wont trust no one starting from now. Not even your friends. After all whats the purposed of me waiting for you all this while? Why must i plan to make a big surprise birthday party for you when all i get is this. You said you love me & that picture wasnt on purpose. If its true its wasnt on purpose, why can you smile at the camera while enjoying him hugging you? Just good luck for your N's.

Yes my hand really hurt so badly. My mistake of punching that stupid thing. Its all because of anger just now. Salah urat siaa! I cant barely move my hand. Cant anyone urut for me? :)

so much of your love & care, honey.
you just took my trust away & tearing my heart into pieces.

2009-09-04T02:12:00.003+08:00

Im not doing good lately. Alots of unsolve problems. Yet im not showing it. Been busy with my friends & been arguing with her. I just dont know why. So now everything i do is wrong. Just need to live this life. Need to accept what happen in life.

I did text you just now but the way you replied me as if im a stranger to you. why?
Please dont think about your own feelings only alright, think about mine too. You know i care about you right. 1 more day alright.

2009-08-26T17:42:00.001+08:00

The mistake you made is Clear.

Just Another Lie.

You know i really hate people lying to me.

Tell me another Lie.

2009-08-26T01:02:00.003+08:00

Hey dickiees ~! Its been awhile since i update my blog. If not for her, i wont update. :) Its already 5th day of Fasting month & im glad i didnt even miss one. Some funny things happened to me on the first day of Fasting month. I was on my way to friends house & i walk pass this two girls, i already saw them from far happily eating their snackers suddenly they hide their snackers quickly just to hide it from me. I laughed right infront of them & all i said was " entah btol korang uzur ke tak ". hahs. You all should see the reaction of their face.

The other story was on the second day of Fasting month, i was waiting for the bus, theres a malay couple holding hands & walk past me. Theres was malay auntie standing beside me & keep looking at them. The funny part is, once they walk past me, the auntie said " eh tk sangke aku laki pon bole uzur eh ". Once the heard what was the auntie said, they quickly let go of each others hand. hahs. Fcuking Funny sia.

I miss someone. The last time i meet her was on friday. Just one day before Fasting month.

Should have met her on last monday night but she followed her friends to Bazaar & sadly she didnt meet me at all. On that friday night, it was first day of Terawih. Its at 9+ going to 10 when i was sitting & talking right beside her. Suddenly, theres this little boy & his father walk past us & keep looking at us. Yes i know i didnt go for Terawih but the main thing is the little boy keep on shaking his head while looking at us. Wth right. & i said " ngade ngade sia ni bdk, bpk dier tk ckp ape ape abe dier nk belen belen ". Is not like i was kissing her or i did something stupid in the public right. Damn that boy was irritating.

Yeah to someone, i already updated my blog so yeah its your turn. :)

2009-08-20T01:08:00.005+08:00

I dont know if she know i've update my blog. I dont think so. I dont think she knows about my previous post too. Its 2.03am and she's already asleep right now & left me all alone. Im not gonna sleep cause i wanna watch soccer later at 2.30am but im meeting her later in the afternoon. How am i gonna wake up? Let see what time im gonna wake up. Im starting to get bored right now. So i do some quiz in facebook just to kill my boredness. Funny you know.

First quiz was How Sexy is My Zodiac Sign. The answer was Cancer - The Cutie. :)
This is what it wrote on facebook.
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ### appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely r...andom and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
Maybe i am ? :)

Second quiz was What Does My Birthday Talk About Me.
This what it wrote on facebook.
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Conc...erned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying.
Its true anyway. Cause thats me ! :)

The third quiz was What Would You Most Likely Get Arrested For.
This what it wrote on facebook.
Assault & Battery. You dont take any shit- from anybody, kick some ass!
Is it true?

2009-08-19T14:31:00.003+08:00

Life for me is not the same. There's no one to turn to or to let it out to. I don't know why I let it go too far & starting over it's so hard. Seems like everywhere i try to go, i keep thinking of you.

But somebody said they saw you. The person you were seeing wasn't me. & i did i asked you, but you just kept it to yourself. Don't even try to hide it, cause i know when you lying. If you're playing me, please tell me. Cause my heart can't take it anymore. It's been proven, my love you abuse it. I'm not applying pressure on you but i just wanna let you know. That I don't wanna let you go. Im not letting you go & thats for sure. We can work things out. I just need time to release my stress out. I promise you, we'll be like how we used to soon. ❤

2009-08-18T00:39:00.003+08:00

Here i am expressing all out from the bottom of my heart. Life is like a living hell for me. Im loosing my heart out. I just dont know why it happen to me. Yes maybe i used to be a player, Contacting alot of girls at one time. The word faithful was never in my dictionary but till i found you, everything change. The only word going on my head was you. Since knowing you for two month plus, i never had in mind of lying or cheating on you. Slowly the word faithful came inside my head. At the moment i realised you change me alot & i keep asking you for the same question. But yet it wasnt the right time.

It really hurts me when people telling me you're talking on the phone with him. You didnt even tell me a thing till i get my own information. The reason you dont want to tell me was you're scared im gonna get hurt. But you didnt even think how im going to feel when i know it. It hurts me even more when i got to know from other people's mouth.

Till this worst fight, i became moody. Didnt even talk to my friends. Sitting all alone with no one to share all my problems with. After something happened & im not gonna elaborate here. I dont even know where i am. I didnt even went for my appointment & i didnt eat my medicine for two days. Finally my friends found me & the first word came out from my mouth was asking where are you. Maybe my friend told you what happened to me, yes my ribs is really bad but all i care now its you. Im wondering, when im away, did you call me? Did you make an effort to find me? I dont know, so its up to you tell me honestly.

& now everythings settle. I hope you really hold on to the promise you made. Im sorry if something in me going to change. Hopefully nothing will change alright. I dont know how we gonna meet now. Just wait for the time. I really miss you alot. I wont say i love you, cause i know i will get nothing in return. I dont wanna make fool of myself. So yeah for now, imy. ❤

2009-08-16T00:08:00.003+08:00

hey dicks. Yeah it has been a while since i update my blog. Busy with personal stuff. Didnt do much this week. Spend most of days with raudhah❤ . So yeah tried to prank raudhah❤ just now, but it didnt work as plan, just because of aidil. He just dont know how to be serious. So it didnt work this time, but maybe next time. :)

Had a match yesterday against Woodland's Wellington. We won with score of 4-2. I found out that my team has improve alot. Well done team. I just played for less than 10 mins & i understand why. Because i attend training once for this week. & i still get to play. :)

After the match went to town as usual. Went fareast to eat & to lucky plaza to play pool. After pool we slack outside lucky plaza to pictures & stuffs. Around 10+ danny decided to go to pit at Pasir Ris, so steven and i went home from there.

Yeah i know we being arguing for this straight days, but hey this argument will never break us apart love. I promise you ❤ .

you'll be mine star.

2009-08-10T23:14:00.005+08:00

Hey pussies . Yesterday was a bad start for me. Went to meet my friends at Tampines Interchange then met others at Raffles Place cause at City Hall is too crowded to walk. So as i reached Raffles Place mrt i was surprise theres alot of unfamiliar faces were meeting us. I just ignore them.

Then walk from Raffles Place to City Hall. Have some quarrels with my dear raudhah. Sadly we didnt get to watch the fireworks together. Then we keep on fighting and thankfully we are okay before i get in the club. Baby get worried when im in the club. Yeah i understand who wont get worried right. :)

But end up we didnt party. There's a fight inside till outside. I dont wish to elaborate it. I took the first train home & yeah thank god i reached home safely!

Eventhough we kept on arguing & quarreling, our love is still strong. I hope it will stay that way forever eventhough we are not in the In relationship status. hmm Maybe soon? :)

hey

2009-08-09T01:12:00.003+08:00

Its Singapore Day today. Happy 44th birthday Singapore.

Actually i dont have the mood to update but since i've the free time, so why not i update it now. Todays plan is all cock up. I dont know why. Maybe im not watching the fireworks with my love one cause she's busy with her friends. Yes im sad, but what can i do. Exactly nothing. Eventhough we both are online now, we didnt chat at all. We'll see how it goes. :(

We draw with Tampines Rovers 1-1. The wheather is damn hot. I came in for the second half & im half dead. I pity some of friends who need to play full 90 minutes in the hot hot sun. hahs. Next saturday a match against Woodland Wellington. & the worst part is, its start at 3pm again. We just need to face the sun again.

2009-08-08T12:11:00.004+08:00

Harry is too lazy to update his blog & he's giving too much excuses. No time la, late la.. Blablabla! So, Raudhah here will be updating his blog for today! Huhu =D Harry has gone to Jalan Besar Stadium. He's having a match today with Tampines Rovers. All the Best, & Goodluck! (: After which, he'll be heading to Town with friends. And he'll be searching for that "dreamgirl" of his tonight. Hahhh, eh u eh? =p Pantaat betul! Hrmph.

I don't really know what else to blog about. Hopefully Harry will do a proper post later at night when he comes home. ((: So as i mentioned, again.. All the Best for his game today! Hoping he would walk out from that stadium with a big smile! =DD

Till then,
Raudhah ❤

2009-08-06T15:31:00.002+08:00

Someone ask me to blog about her. Actually i dont know what to blog about. She asked me to blog something nice about her. Whatever its is i still love you. hahs. Eyy bler nk jadi matair aku ? hahs. :) im waiting for your answer.

Thanks.

2009-08-05T12:41:00.003+08:00

Im recovering well . But the thing is, other sickness came to me. Now im having a headache, flu & sore throat. Im soo hate all this sickness. Went to school just now just to give MC to my teacher, i almost fall down the stairs because of my fcuking headache.

& to you thanks alot. So much of your Careness. The reason was, its too far? how long am i gonna wait for you to come? i dont know wheres your school? ask mum or my friends to fetch me? Preety much cool answer you gave me. You said you really hope that if i really mean whatever i say, i would really prove it to you right? Maybe now is your turn to prove it to me. I was really fed up with you just now. I was really hoping for you but in the end i was wrong. You can meet your other friends out there but you cant fetch me? hey im sick & im not lying to you. If i were not sick, i wont waste your time to fetch me. So much of your love, care & trust .

Durah Hannah

2009-08-03T23:47:00.002+08:00

Heyy pussy's & dick's !

Meet Durah Hannah! She call me Uncle Harry. Cute kn. One day she'll be hot+cute chicks. hahs. Sorry picturee blurr sikitt. :)

Did nothing muchh yesterday & todayy. Yesterday was my familyy day. Went vivo city then went to Sakura at Clementi Woods.Sedap siooll makan sampaii kenyang!

Went to appoinment just now. & the doctors says im recovering well. But it will take still takes time to recover fully. & yeah im fit to play soccer again. Im soooooooo wanna play for this saturday's match at Jalan Besar Stadium against Tampines Rovers. Hope im not gonna sit on the bench. After the appointment, meet someone & went to Tampines Safra to play pool. Something happened after we playe pool just now at bedok but i dont wanna say it here.

hahs, you sorry i did know your ezlink was inside my pockett. hahs but it doenst mean you cant go to school tomorrow alrightt! hahs, finally get to meet you just noww. Meet you again tmrw, b !

Dont take things for granted.

2009-07-29T01:54:00.008+08:00

its 1.54am and yet im on my bed. Cant sleep. Thinking about my condition. Please God help me to recover faster. Thanks friends, for understanding me. But sometimes i feel sad because some of my friends keep asking me whats wrong with me. All i answered was "aku sakit uhh" . Yes, i embrassed to tell my friends what is happening to me.

I really learnt something went this thing happen to me. Dont take things for granted. Because, if you were to be having in a condition like me, you will really regret it for what you have done before this happen. Yes you wont realise anything you had done wrong, but somehow you'll know. & for me, its already too late for me, i need to move on & i need to be who i am right now. I really hope its will cure faster than we all expected. Insyaallah.

For my teammates, yes you all lose 3-1 to nfa17. At least we gain our pride back. For me, hopefully i'll be retuning to training on next monday & hopefully be fit again for the next match. Seriously, i cant live without my passion. For now i just need to eat the medication, work out, slacking & meet bby. Thats all.

Its 2.50am now & i still cant sleep. bby went to sleep without telling me. pantat btol. Maybe she's too tired. Thanks for being with me all this while. Eventhough we are not in relationship yet, all it matters is the love you have for that someone. I really appreciate it alot & i really mean ALOT. ❤

Gonna think Positive

2009-07-28T12:54:00.004+08:00

Heyy guys, im glad im still living. I really thought this is the end for me. Yes i will try my best to be strong. Went to Changi Hospital with sharin yesterday. Thanks sharin for accompanied me. The doctor says i have this virus call nervous system - bells parcy. Do you all know what virus is that? Im not sure either, all i do was knock my head as the doctor was talking. I cant really understand what he was saying.

me: So doctor can this virus cure? :(

doctor: Errm, i cant say 100% it will cure. But 75% will cure if not it will remain permanently. Because some people are different from others. You just need to take the medication i give to you laterr.

I received 1 week mc. So i need to stay home for a week. But for sure i wont be staying home. My teacher will surely call my house asking me why not going to school. & yeah about the medication, i need to eat 11 tablets everyday for this week & i really dont like the taste !

After the check up, meet bby then wait for aluq & steven. Went to grandlink to play pool & computer. In pool i woon everyone. :) Send bby back home & walk to my normal route to home. & i realised our love became stronger each day we meet. :)❤

And to my teammates, goodluck for your game against NFA 17 today. Maybe i'll be coming. So yeah i wont playing soccer for 1 month i guess. Fcuk it. :(

Crying wont cure my illness

2009-07-26T21:45:00.006+08:00

Thanks to people who really understand me. Life is totally miserable to me NOW. I feel like theres no point of me living again. Yes some of my friends know about this. I really feel sad. Im crying while updating my blog. Cause of my illness. Theres some virus inside my body. Its not H1N1 or AIDs or whatever you think it is. This virus is like a Stroke but it just affect outside the brain & not in the brain. I cant play any sports & what about my soccer career. The worst thing is i dunno wheather it can cure or not & my aunt told me theres no medicine for this illness. Does it sound bad enough to you?

Thanks to someone accompanied me to the clinic. After went to the clinic, went to her house to watch Spore vs Liverpool with her parents. I put a fake smile while meeting her parents. Actually my heart was broken into pieces after what the doctor told me. Its hard for to drink , eat , see & talk. Right after the match ended went straight home and the first thing i do at home was punch the mirror in my room. Seriously you all dont even know how i feel right now after what the doctor had told me. The doctor gave me a letter for me to go to Changi Hospital. Im going there tomorrow. I dont know whose going to pay for the bill.

& to you, maybe thats the reason why we are not in the relationship yet. Its because of my illness & if you really think you wanna stop contacting with me because of my condition. Then its okay, i understand. Every girl want their boyfriend to be hot & cute , they wont want a guy in this condition right. But i trust you, i know you wont leave me. Being in a realtionship is just a status. All it matters is the love you have for that someone.

Thanks friends !

2009-07-17T00:07:00.008+08:00

Im playing for H-Two-O tournamnet tomorrow at Nanyang Poly. My team is playing for under 21 & below catergory. My coach is playing too. But i dont wanna play cause i wanna go out with my love one. Sorry, i need to cancel the plans. Maybe im meeting you after that. :)

To everyone who wish me, Thanks alot. I really appreciate all your wishes. Seriously. I hope i'll enjoy today. I still dont know whats the plan for today. Hopefully its gonna be happening. Please friends & teammates, i beg you all dont 'Sabo' me. I made a birthday wish & its about you. I just need to know something from you. Still awaiting for the right time.

17 July 1992.

Life still go on.

2009-07-16T00:28:00.004+08:00

As we draw with SAF fc 0-0. & worst part is i didnt get to play. Theres no reason why my coach didnt play me. I attend most of my training session & all i get is sitting down on the bench yesterday. I feel so Fcuk up! Not only me, even my teammates came every training & he sit on the bench with me. Coach told us that we were resting us for next tuesday game against GUFC at Jalan Besar Stadium. We'll get to play. Yes i'll come for the training session this week & next week. But if my coach didnt keep his words, serious speaking, i'll just let it all out to him & quit. Theres no use coming for training & prove to him we are worth to play in the end we sit on bench. Is as simple as not coming to training.

Life still go on. I understand something, it worth to know a person for long enough rather being with a person you just knew for only like how many days. Its true. Maybe you wasnt ready cause you're not fully heal because of your past. But you should know im always here for you, without fail. Im just waiting for the right time to come. I was really happy when i see you wearing it on your neck. How i wish the right time come soon. I mean really soon. :)

23 more hours to go & there it goes. :)

Clueless.

2009-07-13T02:52:00.005+08:00

Yesterday tournament was a tough fight but yet my team get in the 3rd position. Scoring one of the nicest goal in the tournament i guess. haha. :) I really have alot of fun. So today will be training & tmrw will be night match against SAF FC at queenstown stadium.

Its 3 am in the morning & im still wide awake. I supposed to have my sleep after along day tournament. But the thing is i really cant sleep. I try to forget what happen yesterday night but i cant. It feels like shit. You really left me clueless & demoralised. You thought i was playing around yesterday, but do i look like im playing around after you answer it. No right. You went to sleep without saying goodnight just 1 minute after i replied your msg & u didnt reply me. You didnt even answer my call too. & im still waiting till now. Thats what make me still awake right now. Im afraid to lose somonespecial. I just hope you really like the gifts.

Signed Sealed Delivered

2009-07-10T00:49:00.002+08:00

Trainning trainning Trainning that what i always do after school. Just met someone for only two days. Obviously im still missing you. Many things happened this week but i wont stated it all.

Saturday match against NTU at Ntu itself.
Sunday Topper Cup tournament at outside Tampines Stadium.
Tuesday night match against SAF fc at Queenstown Stadium.
Friday the 17th of july, its a Special Day for me.

Late at night I'm still wide awake. I keep on thinking. It's kinda funny how life can change & Sometimes love works in mysterious ways too you know. Love life, Feel this is far more than I can take & I thought my heart could never break but now I realised that's one big mistake that i've done. I've done alot of foolish things that I really didn't mean it. Now im trying to change everything i had done.

Maybe i could be the man for you, maybe i can make all your dreams come true & yeah you should think maybe I'm a fool for saying I'm falling for you. You may be thinking I am strange but its true. Just give me a chance to prove it to you. :)

Unsung hero

2009-07-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

Life have been boring for me on the holidays. Soccer training for weekdays & town for weekends. Gonna get busy starting this monday. School re-open for ITE's. Actually im still having this holiday mood. Im lazy to go school.

Yesterday we had a soccer match at Clementi against Japan's team. They are good team but we won them 4-2. & yeah i scored one of the goal. Told you im back in shape, yat. hahas. I need to attend all my training sessions starting from next week. Damn.

Went to town today but its boring for me. Then fun part was only the pool time. In the end we went to merlion to slack. Reached home around 12.15 am.

To my friends that ask me who im with now, the answer is im with no one. & yeah im not contacting with anyone right now. Yes not a single person. Yes ahmad, theres many fish in the sea but the things is its hard to find the right fish we want in the sea. you get me? till here then .

Its not true.

2009-06-28T00:47:00.005+08:00

Im feel tired right now. Wake up at 6.15am just for a friendly match against SP. It really doesnt worth it for me to wake up this early just to play for 30mins. Coach thought im still injured thats why he play me for 30mins only. I was really fed up but i've a good recovery match just now.

For those people who thinks i still love my ex girlfriend, pleasee im so over her. I dont love her. Please dont listen to what other peoples mouth when its not true. You all should ask me cause its my life & i know who i really love. So please stop spreading around that i still love her cause im soo not. People will get the wrong idea you know. & yes i swear upon MY LIFE that i dont love her. So yeah stop it alright.

To you can you trust me for once?

What did i doo?

2009-06-26T01:30:00.004+08:00

the game against wwfc.

We lost the game just now. It was a embarassing game. I didnt get to play & i understand why. Im not yet recover from injury. But im back in training & i'll be back this saturday's friendly match against Singapore Poly. I'll be getting back in shape soon.

What are you trying to say. What did i do wrong? I didnt even say a thing. I wont start fighting just because of this. Its just a misunderstanding. & yes i believe in karma too.

& to you, i know you're playing hard to get. I can see that & i understand it too. & i'll try very hard just to get your heart. Like how though i get in this team. I believe you can change me to better person. Its all up to you.

& yes i've change my song. theres a meaning behind it. if only that person realise it.

Harryden Sanchii

2009-06-19T02:20:00.007+08:00

Life is different now. I didnt attend my training for this week because of my ankle. Spend this 4 days with my dudes. But i need to go to Jalan Besar Stadium tomorrow. Look at my tagboard, read the tag which "Question Mark" tagged me. He/She said people have already talking about me. But seriously do the people who talk about me know me really well? Do they know whats going on in my life? Im sure they dont know. Im sure the only topic they will talk about me is i change girls like i change clothes. But do they know whose they one who left who & the reason why left some? Im sure they dont know too right. Yes Question Mark you told me to get a life right? This is my life. I live with it. Its just that you dont know what is happening in my life. So yeah dont tell me to get a life alright. & yeah to people who like to talk about me, just dont get the wrong info about me alright. Have fun talking about me yeah. Im just being me, Harryden Sanchii. Just dont let me found out its you. c:

Went Downtown with Steven & Aluq just now. Meet Danny, Dyno, Degil, Dewi, Lilu, Beng & Yayat at downtown's Mac. Someone fight with her bf. I dont wanna say name. While i was eating, at a sudden i heard my name being shout. I kept quite because it was none of my bussiness but aluq keep telling me that he shouted my name to her. What can i do aluq? I just came there to meet my friends. All i can do now is saying to her Last Long. Around 8+ some of us went drinking at Pasir Ris Park. I went home early today because aluq & steven need to rest for tomorrow's work. & now im still here cant sleep, but to blog. Im just fcuking Boring ! I just cant wait for Saturday! Going to Sentosa. Soo to people who saw me there, tegur aye. Update soon ~!!

promises?

2009-06-12T13:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the match against Geylang United at Temasek Sec at 3 pm. Theres a tournament on Sunday too. I really hope we win both the match & the tournament. Yeah balls! I've this confident feelings im starting for tomorrow's match against GUFC.

I had enough of it. I cant hide it anymore . Yes i still love my ex girlfriend. But things are so complicated now. Why problems keeps coming to me. Yes i know this is part of life, but cant i have a little fun in my life for a moment? You told me you love me, but how many guys do you love? I cant share my love with someone else. You just made me hate having a relationship. Be serious will you ? Wheres the promises ?

injured.

2009-06-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

Im injured. I doubt so im playing against Nfa u16 this. I really wanna play this saturday match. I'll just let my coach decide then. Haish. I need to put ice on my ankle now. Troublesome.

My life became miserable. Tomorrow is our annivesary & we ended it today. Haish. I really thought our relationship can last long, but only my closee friend will know why. I didnt expect our relationship was this short. Your first msg yesterday night made pissed off. At a sudden you text me that we should go our separate way. That msg makes me thinks. From town till i get home i kept on thinking. Finally i've made my decision. If this how its gonna be, then be it. Once you ask for it, i wont change my mind. But yes im still loving you. I cant just forget you like that. Maybe this is part of life. Life needs to go on. It ends here.

boring life

2009-06-02T11:15:00.002+08:00

Actually im lazy to update today. But i force myself to update. Yesterday went drinking after training with sai, sharil, ami, steven, dan & aidil. But only me & sharil drink alot. Yes i vommit. I was drunk till i dunno how get home. Cool shit isnt it.

Life is boring for me. This tomorrows match is postponed to i dunno when. Like wth we been training for 2 weeks without match. If i know this will happened, i will not be coming to training. This saturday match also will not be comfirm. Tomorrow i'll having my exam & i dont even know a thing. How can i pass my exam? But after my exam tomorrow, im meeting my friends all tomorrow at town. It been so long i went to town with them. i wanna buy t-shirt from quicksilver. Im kinda miss my schoolmates.

only pictures

2009-04-25T13:30:00.005+08:00

HUFC - SAF FC

All my pictures against SAF Fc. Im lazy to edit the pictures. So enjoy watching it.

And yeah, today's match Home United Against NFA 16 At Springfield Sec at 5 pm.

she just doenst know me.

2009-04-23T14:20:00.003+08:00

My house is like hell now. Everytime i get home, my mum will shout at me. Arghh stress. I didnt went to school today cause im so tired & the lesson today is soo boring. I have no trainings too. Its good theres no training today, cause my leg is in bad condition. Hope it can recover by tomorrow.

Its complicated now. Peoples keep asking me where's my girlfriend. But the thing is i dunno wheather im still with her or not? We rarely contact each other. So whats the point of being together if u're busy with ur stuff & dont have time for me? Not even 5 mins? I dont care no more. Its ur life.

Never knew a girl could be so god damn cold, the way she move in the club got me falling for her.
That was the time i was wrong for falling in love with you. It was a feelin i can't explain. And it felt like harmony. I don't want it to ever go away. I want it around me every day. But i wouldn't be so easy. Look at me, i'm stuck. That girl in club & now she's mine got me caught up. I never had a luck. It feels so good had me sprung out all messed up. And now i'm stuck. But who’s be loving you lately? And this is what i get for falling in love with you.

Just being a soccer player.

2009-04-19T13:03:00.003+08:00

Have a soccer match yesterday at Springfield Secondary against SAF. Thats why people didnt see me at city or town like usual. I wont be going to town or city hall or slacking with my friends on next Saturday, cause im having another against NFA 16. So yeahh.

Finally, i started for yesterday game. Made the first chance of the game. I play the full of the 90minutes. Played 3 position yesterday. Right Wing, Left Wing & Centre Mid. FuuuuH~! Feel good to play on the position in midfield. But its totaly tiring. We end up with a draw. Home United 1 - 1 SAF. We're supposed to win the game cause we a controlling the game, but we didnt took the chance seriously. & yeah , im improving, just need to come for more training. So going out today, need to survey for mp3 or mp4 . so tc ~

Just Being a Rockstar !

2009-04-12T12:31:00.009+08:00

Good Friday

Good Friday was okayy. Bought a new Vans shoes at Cineleisure. Green/ Lime in colour. The Shoes is really nice but i bought i size bigger than my foot because it was the last stock. So i rather buy it & wear thick socks when i go out. Went to Youth Park & took some pictures. Then head to City Hall cause Antonio wanna treat us DRINK. So we drink & drank at Memo while waiting for Antonio's cousin. After Shawn came, we play pool at Marina Square & went home.

Saturday

Had my soccer match at Jalan Besar Stadium against NFA u17. Yes, we lose. 2-0. Its not a bad score actually. Most of the team get trash by them. Three of our first 11 didnt play cause of some sickness. At last i get to play yesterday. We'll return in the second meeting. Need to come full training for this coming week. Seriously, I want to play against SAF for some reason.

After the match went home & straight to bed. Too tired to change my clothes. Wake up at 3 & get ready to meet the others at Town. We play pool at lucky plaza while waiting the others to come. We headed to Peninsula. This time aidil's turn to treat us Drinking. Cause On friday was his birthday. So we drink & drank at Fort Caning Park. Mickie rbk siaa. Scolded mickie for some reasons & went home. Anw Happy Belated Birthday, Aidil !

To you. its have been a week u didnt contacted me. & u still dare to say you love me?

Why dont u want to let me go? I wanna know do you love me because of myself or you love me because of my looks? Tell me honestly. & now you want your parent to get involve in this? haish. Im Fine without you now.

Boringggg ~

2009-04-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today was boring day. I knew i wont get to play today cause of my attendance. But the match have alots of fights. & i really like that type of match seriously. Too bad i cant play. If i were to play that match, i bet you im the first one to create trouble. We won Woodland Wellington 3-1.
After the match theres some fights again, this time around their whole squad wanna fight with us. The first Person to react & run to them was Me but my coach was just running beside me to stop them. erggh. After the fight, Our team get some lecture from Coach. I need to start coming to training next week if i wanna play against National Under 17 next Saturday. It should be at jalan besar stadium. Tell me who dont wanna play at that field? Everyone do right.

Thought of going to town after the match, but we were to lazy. So we went to tampines interchange to eat. Slack at the void deck nearby tampines mall, Smoke & Play Cards.
Today was supposed to be the day where i enjoy myself. But it turn out to be my boring day of this week. Hope tomorrow wont be so boring like today.

Life is hard

2009-04-04T02:36:00.004+08:00

Life is hard for me now. I almost get kick out of Home United. The reason was my bad attendance. I didnt turn up most of the training. This week i just turn up 1 training session out of 4. And tomorrow i'll be having match against Woodland Wellingston. For sure im not playing. Just need to show my face there. But i really hope i get to play tomorrow. I hope so.

Life is hard for me for the past few Weeks. I just wont explain it here. Only the people who is close to me will know about it.

To you. What does the "Promise is a Promise" supposed to mean?
I want an answer from you. thanks.

Changes.

2009-03-16T08:18:00.001+08:00

People do change you know? People knows all my old Harryden story when im in 2008. But do you all know who is Harryden in 2009? People do change. We make every decision for the first time with no obligation to the past. If we control anything, we control our own thoughts and behavior. I know people are talking about me in the past but seriously i want to know, do you all know me that WELL or you just heard it from peoples mouth? & where did that person heard it from? Do you know? I have come to find that jealous people will always envy you for what you have even if it was a piece of crap. Selfish people will never learn how to give to others. Angry people will never calm down and they will always find a way to make your life miserable because that is what they do. We will always have fights with our families. We will always feel stupid after we say something we don’t want to say. & it feels really silly that I am not able to talk about what is really bothering me. Well I hope people do believe, but how much depends on them! Maybe they won’t completely believe, but at least they know. But some people, they simply refuse to. Yes i know, Actions Speaks Louder Than Words. & im trying to prove it. If i can improve anything, it should be my behaviour.

Trust Me, In Every Guy's Mind, They Want To Be A Player,
Why Can GIRLS Play Us Around & We Cant ?

This sentence was given from my friends, antonio.
Its true. It really make sense, Seriously.
I hope you got the point with that sentence why im being such a naugthyboy last year.

Flying down.

2009-02-01T20:40:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was totally bad day for me. I didnt play well for soccer. I let a smaller boy play a fool of me. I dont know why i was getting bad to worse. Maybe because of my problems? Had some personal talks with my coach. He asked me whats wrong to my performance. He told me that my position is gonna be a challenge & if were to carry on this type performance, i can say goodbye to this club. Seriously i need to buck up. Not only on my study but on my studies too !

After my horrible soccer match , went to city hall with Zul kecik. The first thing we do when we reached there was eat ! We are really really hungry. After that met our friends at marina steps. There were many of them. Went home with dewi & kecik retro. Dewi's gf was sume lmbt, kene tingal. hahhas.

But the bad thing about yesterday was some of my friends went Sentosa without me. Lupe kawan kn. Never mind its okayy. Then today, they went to town without me again. haish. thanks la you all.

Today was my first month single.

She told me something that made me feel heartbroken.

She promised someone. Its okayy. will go our seperate ways. :[

boringg

2009-01-30T23:55:00.005+08:00

School was boring today. After school meet beng & some of my friends beside Damai Secondary.

Accompany beng to bedok interchange & help her to sell something. She ask for my help cause she havent get her IC yet. She's going 14 this year. After selling the stuff, i went home & she went to sunplaza to meet her friends. Reached home ard 2+ , Surf the internet for awhile & straight to bed to take a nap. I knoww its Boooorrriiinggggg ~!! Wake up around 5+, take a bath, ate my burger & straight away went to street soccer. Played till late night , went home, take a bath & here i am. I gotta sleep early today. I've a soccer match tomorrow at Old Police Academy. Kick off at 5pm. Home United u18 agaisnt Home United u16. So im not sure im going to City Hall tomorrow.

My lifes is getting boring & worse. I didnt concentrate on my studies in school at all. All i do was talking, disturbing, smoking, playing cards & playing soccer with my friends.

My friend told me he was boring with his life whithout having girlfriend. He told me that he dont know if he's gonna find girlfriends cause he said " when im attached i feel like i wanna be single & when im single i feel like i wanna be attached."

Actually its true.

Theres nothing about you that i can say anymore.
Someone is jealous of new Handphone !

moody.

2009-01-19T23:48:00.003+08:00

I have Inter - Class Soccer tomorrow, but im not sure if im playing or not. Feel like not playing tomorrow. Kinda have this lazy attitude of mine. Soccer used to be my first in my life, but now i dont know why i feel like give up on soccer. All i know in my life, i wont give up soccer that easily.

Maybe there's something bothering me & that cause me to have this feeling of no mood in playing soccer. But the thing is i dont know whats that something that always bothering me in my head. People always thinking im alright, but they dont even know whats going on deep inside me. Some of my school asked me today, " harry asl muke ko mcm laen sia narii ? ko ader hal eh ?" Guys, all this while i've putting a fake smile to you all. I dont want people to know whats going on to me actually. But i need to share this thing with someone that really can understand me. But who should i share with. To me, only soccer can get me forget this stuff. But its just for moment. :[

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im just too stresss !!

To you. maybe i should move on, i will try my hard to. I really meant by those word i said to you but like you said, "klao kiter ader jodoh" we be back together again. I'll be moving on. So kalau ader jodoh, we be back together again like 171208 . :]

Its been awhile.

2009-01-18T01:53:00.003+08:00

It have been a long time since i update my blog. Sorry you all.

Im busy with school & some other things. At times im lazy too.

Yesterday was supposed to be My annivesary with her. But too bad we ended before this .

We did celebrate it, but as a friend. More than a friend i should say. Beng keep disturbing me about the chalet thingy. If not because of her chalet, i & her wouldnt be to together before.

Its true. We celebrate beng's birthday too. We drink & took pictures. I drink too much till i dont know what i was doing. Nasib ader org jage. :]

Went home ard 11.30. She gave me a kiss that i've been waiting so long since our break up. Thank you . All i wanna know is, do you really mean it? :/

Wednesday is my School's Soccer Trial. I should try for it. Wish me luck you all. :]

Im still waiting for you. :[

Happy New Year !!

2009-01-01T18:01:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

Happy new year everyone ! You all must be happy right. School are starting soon.

Hmm. Countdown at Downtown yesterday. It was awesome ! Have some tecktonik battle there.

After all the dance was over, we went to someones chalet. We ate, drink , talk & laugh.

But something bad happen to me today. She broke up with me. What a new year huh. Its over.

I never thought i could fall in love from a simple crush.

Didnt expect this is how things would go.

When you text me, said you had enough, you made me stop loving & trusting girls.

This is what happen if you really love the girl so much.

She leave you & you'll be hearbroken forever.

Why you leave me when i love you?

stress

2008-12-28T02:51:00.004+08:00

I feel like clubbing again. Miss those time. Haish. But it kinda waste money. Nevermind. Just wait for Countdown. Its gonna be fun i guess. Going countdown with my lil honey & my friends. Comfirm kecohh ~!! Four more Days to COUNTDOWN !

I've been posted to Balestier Campus. Getting Automative Technology. But my brother didnt want me to be in that course. He decline the offer & ask me to appeal other course. Lecehh siaa. All i wanna do now is continue that course. But the thing is i need to give him a good reason. What reason should i give? Stress !!

Eventhough we fight everyday.

We used vulgarities to each other.

Im still loving you like always.

Im sure we solve this stupid fights & stuffs.

This relationships needs more patient & trust.

I dont know where i stand with you
& i dont know what i mean to you.
All i know is everytime i think of you,
All i wanna do is be with you, huns.

love youu.

2008-12-25T23:36:00.003+08:00

Theres this girl .

Her laugh makes me smile,

Her eyes are my fav colour,

The way she talks gives me butterflies.

The best thing about her is she's MINE.

Everything between me & my huns is fine now.

We settled all the stupid fights.

& i never took advantage of you.

Whatever it is, im still loving you, always.

Huns, see how sweet am i. :)

Patient

2008-12-25T16:06:00.003+08:00

Ehh someone tried to scare me using friendster comment. Eyy come on laa. Kau da buat mulut psl aku , skrg ko kater aku buat mulut psl ko. Ko kater aku tk kn lps gitu mcm je? Ko nk carik aku uh nii? Smbrg uhh , ape ko nk aku pn nk kay. Jgn smpi aku yg carik ko. Bnyk bunyik bnyk bohong .

Im just being patient here. You asked me ton with you & them. Yes, we did ton. Bt you went home early. I was in no mood when you wanna go home early. Balik siang siang ader aper siaa. & my bus not even started. I sent you back home. & you left me alone at the busstop. You didnt even wait with me for the bus. Tungu bus cam bdk bodoh siaaa. Cause the bus has not start yet. If you really love & care for me, you should waited with me. Haish. thanks okayy.

m18

2008-12-22T02:04:00.003+08:00

WARNING !!

DONT WATCH IF YOU'RE BELOW 18 YEARS OLD

Thinking about us.
My only weakness is you.
Only reason is you.Every minute with you.
I can feel like I can do anything when im with you.
I love you.

loving you

2008-12-21T01:23:00.003+08:00

It have been a hard time for me to choose ITE courses. It took me 2 days to think which course i wanna choose. I've made up my mind & i've applied it online. My first choice was Infocom, Second was Aerospace & third was Fitness Training. I prefer Fitness Training but damn far sehh. Its at Clementi . Sape mau gi lyn siakk.

I dont know where to go today. Should i go Singapore against Vietnam match at national stadium or go esplanade for Comic Strip gig. ? All i know i wanna meet my lil huns today. :)

Loving you never a mistake. :)

Imissmylittlehuns.

Just maybe.

2008-12-17T00:26:00.005+08:00

Sentosa was fun. Ton-ing at downtown was okay. Playing soccer today at tiong bahru was okay but boring. Tmrw going to irenebeng's chalet. Maybe ton-ing.

Im taking my results on Thursday, but i dont know what time is it. Can anyone tell me? Im nervouss now. Never feel like this before. I hope i'll pass my N with flying colours !

Its sad when she ended this relationship. But i got to move on. Yes, i still miss you. But its over now. Im will not blame you for ending this relationship. I understand you. Hope you will be fine out there.

People are asking me about Dewi & me being close. The truth is we are just friends, Closee friends. People are thinking too far. I dont know whyy. People are thinking that im having a relationship with her. Why not i give it a try huh. :) Maybe one fine day. :)

Thanks

2008-12-08T18:55:00.003+08:00

Hey sorry for not updating for a long time. I've been busy. It have been long time since i kick a soccer ball. I miss playing soccer. All this while i've been going to town to slack or to clubs to enjoy myself. My results is coming in 9 days. & im still enjoying myself. Tomorrow going gothem will my usual friends to club. Kinda miss my secondary friends, seriously. Nothing more to update. Maybe wednesday i update somemore.

Thanks for everything. Ive been believing in you & this what i get ? Im dissapointed by you. We're nothing now kayy. I aint you boyfriend now. You know why. thanks alott. All this while ive been there for you when you've problems. I cheered you up. What else do you want from me? I just hate liars ! enough is enough. I guess this is karma huh. Once again thanks for eveything

I didnt feel it .

2008-11-27T00:55:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to post about. This pic was taken one day before St James day. St James was fun. I really enjoyed it. But its tiring. Took cab home. Reached home around 4. Sleep for 2 hours & meet my other friends for soccer match. Walaowehh ! penat siaaa aku ! Then meet girlfriend & idah at Boon Lay. Around 8+ ahwat join us . Ahwat treat me makan . hahas. Thanks laaa ahwat Elf-ff.

Eyyy !! Friday kluar ramai ramai sioll ! im tired now, i gotta sleep now !

lil honey (:

wanna be me.

2008-11-23T01:17:00.003+08:00

I cant wait for 25th.

I wanna go St James !

Im forgetting you.

m sorry.

We're the champion !

2008-11-10T12:39:00.007+08:00

CHALLENGE CUP FINAL

HOME UNITED 0 - 0 COE WEST

PENALTY 3 - 2

Yes yes yes . We won the cup. We're the champion. Thanks to ameerul, my goalkeeper , saved 3 of their penalty shots. It was a tight match seriously. They could have won it but my defender & goalkeeper really did a good job. Many of my friends came down & support me. Thanks you all. Thanks to all the people came down to Jalan Besar Stadium & support us. We really appreciate it so much. & yeah since the first min of the game, Coe West were booing at us & trying to make us demoralise. But we keep our head up & continue playing. We proved them wrong in the last minute. We won ! & they start to silent & walk out from their sits. We want to celebrate infront of their friends, but coach didnt allow us to. Im in a Happy mood now, but im tired ! Finding work soon. All the pictures & video here in my blog is taken by my friend, danial.

we're in the final

2008-11-04T21:17:00.004+08:00

Home United 3 - 1 COE North

Yes, we won them. It should have been more goals, but our final touched is not there. I wasted my opportunity to score. grrr. We won yet im still upset with someone didnt attend my match. Someone special. You know who you're. We're in the Final now. We are facing COE West in the final. It will be a tough match, seriously. There's no rest till Saturday. I'll have my training till Friday, just to prepare for the Finals. I hope all my friends will come & support me in the finals.

But im really not sure if im playing. I'll be all out for my upcoming training just to get in the First 11 for the Finals. FINAL HERE WE COME !

FINAL

HOME UNITED VS COE WEST

JALAN BESAR STADIUM

Kick off at 7PM

THIS COMING SATURDAY !

Goodbye School.

2008-10-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

Harrydenn.

Goodbye School .

School Friends.

She's tall you know.

Goodbye school. Today is the last day i will go inside the school studying with my white school uniform. By the end of next tuesday, i will burn this Uniform. The thing is how am i gonna go to school next tuesday for my CIP without my tie! I hang my tie at the light infront of the general office with my name on it. hahas. Souvenir for the school from me.

This Sunday is my match against geylang. Im feel so nervous now. I've never felt this this way before. Im afraid of making mistake on Sunday. grrrr ! What am i gonna do. Im just going to do my all if i get my chance to play starting line-up like used to. After my Challenge Cup, i will find a job for myself. If you want to wear branded things, you need to work for it. So thats what i want to do. I just cant depend of my parents giving me money everyday.

Im done with relationships for now. Just for now.

Jessica.

2008-10-09T11:42:00.003+08:00

Friends.

This few days have not been my day. Anyway my N's is over. Im finally free now. Now what i need to do is just focus on my Challenge Cup which is this sunday. Just Maybe there will be no girlfriends for now. Still searching yaw. & theres someone in my mind now & she doesnt know about it. But its not the right time. & friends, i cant meet you all like how i used to, i'll be busy with my soccer training & matches. I hope you all understand.

Masturanii !

2008-10-01T02:25:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARRY RAYA !

Wearing Pink for my first day.

I will update more after my 1st day of hari raya.

New Balance !

2008-09-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Yeah just bought new shoes on Friday! New Balance babe ! So air max cancel uhh ! hahahs. Still have many things to buy. Waiting for duit Raye aje. weeee ~!

Things MUST buy !

1. Baju kurung Pink !
2. Nike Vapour 4 !
3. New Phone !

Tomorrow is N level . & im not even ready for it. How am i suppose to pass my N this way. Stress siaa ! Just hoping that all the question i can do. If not, im totally gonna fail. Seriously i need to pass my N with flying colours! Please Harrydenn , Wake your Fcuking Brain up! arghh!

People keep asking me. " Harry mane matair kau?" & " Harry kau da ader matair baru?".
When i say I dont have any gf, they thought im lying to them. They will say this. " kau comfirm ke tk sia kau tk der matair?" , " Jgn bedek uh tk der matair." , " step tk der siaa. alaa kau kn PLAYER, senang dapat pmpn." Eyy come on laa everyone, im single! grrrr. Im not the old Harry that used to play with girl's heart. Im not the old Harry that can have any girls i want. People are using my name to contact other gurls. Why in many names in this world, they choose my name? Hairudin a.k.a Harrydenn somemore. Bole kasi link profile lagi kt tu pmpn. But bler check nombor hp laen plk tu. Whatever it is laa, the person is just making me popular. Thanks. & to the gurls that think im contactting with you, please check with your friends that the number is correct. If this number 82535196 appear at your hp & act as me. Better tell me fast. Thanks !

Weeee ~! I just ♥ my New Balance !

Q !

2008-09-22T23:46:00.003+08:00

I wanna buy many things on October !

Nike vapour boots / Adidas powerswerve boots.
Nike Air Max shoes
Messy T-Shirts
Messy Jeans
Stussy Cap
Stussy T-Shirt

Whatever

2008-09-21T00:46:00.006+08:00

Went orchard today with Meo, aluq, dan kecik, daniel, muz, sai, aidil, firah, efah & mickie irah. Aluq kene saman with HSA. Nasib dapat lari siaa kite org. Break fast at Cathay . Then the boys & the gurls got seperat way. We went to eunos meet "people". Kecoh siaa. Mcm satu skola siaa turon. Then we all proceed geylang searching for watch. Tapi satu pn tk dpt. Kecoh kecoh.

Yes i saw you. & you were shock. Your face changed. & you were looking behind me too. Why. Do you expect me to be with other gurls just now. All you saw was my brothers right. No girls. & you know why. Seeing you with other guys really hurts. But nothing i can do. We are nothing now.

i saw you.

Whatever i say, it wont change you.

Eventhough you know the truth, you still hate me.

Theres no point of me begging to you right now. It wont change a thing.

Just Maybe.

2008-09-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

Oh hello people. Sorry for not updating my blog this few days. Not that i dont wanna blog, but i have nothing to blog about. hahas. School are boring. We make this school like our father's property. We play pingpong when we are supposed to have lessons. & the teacher just ignore us. hahhas. Cool right. After school, went to computer lab to play CS for more then 4 hours. For free lagii ~! Kecoh sia satu computer lab. hahas. My next paper is on 29 september, & im still playing around & not getting serious. How can i get serious when im having problems? Never mind, you all will never understand.

I know this Girl will read my blog. & this one is for you. I didnt realised that you've been reading my blog all this while. Your friend who told me about this. You make me smile everytime when im looking at you. Your the reason for me to start smilling again. All this while i've this feelings for you. But you belong to someone. & that someone is my friend too. I will keep this feelings inside me & i wont tell you till the perfect time. Seriously, Im in love again.

Sheesha makes me Crazy ~!

2008-09-13T13:17:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night was fun. When for sheesha with my friends. Sheesha makes me go Crazy ~! Heres the pictures.

Stupid ~!

2008-09-11T23:31:00.004+08:00

Today was boring. I turned up for my eoa papers. Seriously, its easy. But i forget to remember the format. I hope that doesnt effect so much on my marks. Im here to tell you all about this story. A stupid incident happened just now after the exam. My classmate & i were supposed to go back to the class. On the way back, i saw sheihron. He was playing Table Tennis. He is taking his exam after us. So when i came down the stairs, i shouted " eyy Ron" thats all & im far away from him. I went to him & see him play & someone shouted loudly from behind. It was my exam teacher.

Mr Gaybriel: EH ! HELLO ! EH HELLO !

Harry: You talking to me? oh okay.

I went straight to my class & he shouted again.

Mr GAYbriel: EH YOU! COME HERE ! NOW !

Harry: Me ? Me again?

Harry: Yes?

Mr Gaybriel: What did you told him about the exam paper?!

Harry: What did i tell him? I didnt tell him anything, i just watched him play ping pong, thats all.

Mr Gaybriel: Dont lie to me ! You know he hasn't taken his exam yet ! & why are you telling him about the exam ?!

Harry: huh?! what are you talking about? I didnt even talk to him . Dont you get it?!

Mr Gaybriel: You got prove? Prove me.

Harry: Yes i got prove. All of them there is my witness.

So i shouted to them " eyy aku ader bebual ngn sheihron tk?" & all of them said no. I bring two of them to prove to this fcking teacher.

Mr Gaybriel: Did he talk to sheihron?

The two boys: No, he was standing there about 3 second & you started shouting.

Harry: See ! I told you !

Mr GAYBRIEL: Hairudin, you can go back to you class. I want to talk to this two boys. * paisey voice*

I was so angry went he came back to class & said maybe our papers will be pull off & we need to retake it. Its not just because of me. Two of my friends did something else too. One of them went toilet without permission & their other one went 2nd floor to talk to his friend. haha. & now he is blaming us & wanna write a report to the MOE about this. Wth! If we do retake this practical & if its not as easy as just now, im totally gonna hunt you Gaybriel. Went for training today. It was tiring ! Penat nak mampos siaa ! This totally tell me that im not fit. Wahseliao ~! We meeting Geylang United for Challenge Cup. Yeah we all were surprised about that information. They beat us twice, so what? We know we can win them this time. We are not acting big or what, but we're just Confident. We wont give them respect in the field this time round. Thats what happened, we gave them to much respect & they are taking advantage of us. We're totally going to fight all out against them. There will be a competitive game on 11 october. Im just waiting for that day to come.

Guess its really over.

2008-09-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

My life is getting bad to worst. All i was doing was just acting happy. Why must my life be like this. I feel like skipping my papers tomorrow. & maybe i wanna my soccer training too. I have no mood to do anything for now. Every night i keep thinking of something. Something that i didnt do it. Something that were not suppose to happened. At last im the one who being blame. Why must it happen to me? Why me? She has find her replacement for me just in 3 days. Im feel sad. I just thought of being.......... If only i have the time machine, i will turned back & i will really hold on to the relationship we had before. But its too late. I know i need to move on. The thing is i cant move on. Im stuck. Im stuck with all this feelings. Im stuck with you. Ever heard a phrase, I hate you but i love you? Thats how i feel now. I guess your heart for me has close. All over. Well i just hope the best for both of you. You know who im refering too.

You told me that you loved me
why did you leave me to cry in the cold
you swore this time was different
why does that line seem so old

You told me I was the only one
who could make you feel that way
you told me that you cared about me
so why didnt you stay

All the nights you laid with me
alone in the dark in my bed
now I finally realize
you were just messing with my head

Love is such a powerful word
a word people often misuse
something they take for granted
something they beat and abuse

My wounds run deep inside me
there's blood all over the place
I think I’ve really lost it this time
Im ashamed to show my face

CPA was confusing

2008-09-09T12:19:00.006+08:00

Fake smile

School was boring for me. CPA papers were confusing. It makes me go stressy. & oh ya, i forget about writting something put it in the suggestion box ! oh damn, shikin totally will kill me. Shikin Sorry ye. I forget lerrr. After taking the CPA papers, i played soccer for a while & suddenly there was a guy in car shouted my name, i thought this guy is going to sell me something or what. But when i come to the car, it was liza nyer kakak nyer tunang. hahas. He ask me what happened between me & liza, because he wasn't in singapore when we broke up. The conversation was like this.

Abang asri: Harry!

Harry: yek eleh, ingat kn saperr siaa. Biler alek Singapore?

Abang asri: haha, last week . Liza mane?

Harry: mane tahu sehh, harry da tk jage dierr siaa. Kereta baru nmpk.?

Abang asri: ingat kn harry nmpk liza tadi. Last week baru beli ni kereta. Aper jadi ko ngn liza ?

Harry: mane harry tahu. tanyer uhh dier, dier yg mintak break siaa.

Abang asri: okay, matair dier harii ni masok NS.

Harry: ey? hahaha, okay. Matair dier tk suke harry pe.

After that i asked rokok from him for my friends. hahahs.

i kind of miss liza. I dont know why. She's the girl who really understand me. The memories i had together with her will never be erased.

Yesterday, a girl confessed to me that she love me. My all HUFC teammates know this girl, cause she was ex HUFC cheerleader. & one of my teamates was her ex. If im not wrong, my teammate still has feelings for her. All i said to her was "Im not gonna be with you." Because i have no feelings for this girl, & if i do have the feelings for this girl, i will still not gonna be with her. She was my friend's ex. What will my friend think of me if im with her? I dont want because of this girl, i & him will not be talking in training or matches. All this while i realised that Friendships is more important than having a Relationships.

Im becoming the person that is easily give up now. I dont know why. Its hard for me to explain. Its difficult for me to trust someone now. In school, all i gave was a fake smile. With that fake smile, people think im okay. But they just dont know how i feel deep inside my heart.

Loving you wasnt a mistake

2008-09-08T12:21:00.004+08:00

As life goes on im starting to learn more and more about responsibility i realise everything i do is affecting the people around me. So I want to take this time out and apologise for things i have done. Im not the guy you all know now. Im just a kid with a broken smile. Everything is over now. Its Done. It's too late for me to turn back. All i need to do now is move on, be a better person like Jannah told me to. All i have now is just my friends. But having a girl in your heart is totally different from having your friends by your side right. Thank god, i still have my friends by my side.

Oh girl, Im sorry for the times I disrespect you. Sorry for the wrong things that i have done to you. Sorry for the times that im not aware when you can't sleep at night & im not there for you. For sure you are one of the best thing in my world. & how i am so proud to called you my girl. I understand that there are some problems & im not too blind to know all the pain you kept inside you everyday. Even though you might not show, i'll still knew it. Things are over now. I cant call you favourite girl anymore. We're nothing now but just a friend. We both gotta move on with our lifes. All the memories will undoubtedly register a place in my heart. :)

Yeah~!

2008-09-07T21:55:00.005+08:00

Eyy lets forget about the things just happened to me today. Now i have a Die hard Fan.

Would you all believe it? hahahahs. Eyy atikah , ko fikir aku tk branii kn.

Hahahhas My DIE HARD FAN is Nur 'atikah.

Since bler nii ko jadi die hard fan? Cool uhh ader Die Hard Fan

Anw thanks Sheihron, Ayu, Atikah & Shikin for cheering me up.

AND PEOPLE, THIS GIRL & I IS JUST A FRIEND, NOT MORE THAN THAT.

Thanks for everything.

2008-09-07T17:19:00.005+08:00

I knew this would happen. I dunno whats the reason of it. Its her who making all the trouble, not me. & now u blaming me for all this. Do you find it fair. To all the people who want me to be busted, i hope you all are happy now. A girl just broke up with me. Oh girl, i really thought we gonna work out all this problem together but i guess im wrong. You're the girl who like to give up easily. If you were asking me about the phrase " if you love someone let them go ?", but tell me, Why must you let that someone go when you really love him? I've been protecting you from that Someone till he gets on my tagboard & this what i get back from you. & guess what, if we were together, tmrw is our day. But too bad we are not together now. You said, "I gave you my puriest heart and there was never any lie in us." its just another lie i guess. & now, theres no more you in my life. Whatever it is, i need to accept it & just move on. Thanks for everything. Thanks for making me stop smilling. Hope you're Happy now.

if you love me, you should have try every means and ways to keep the relationship going.

A Kid In Me

2008-09-07T11:12:00.006+08:00

There's always a kid in me.

I just dont know who am i now. I feel so different. My life is getting weird now. How i wish things could be different. I miss the real kid inside me. Maybe karma is hitting me. Or maybe not. I really need a break. Someone really want to make my life miserable. My prelims results are bad & i need to buck up. I really need to do well in N level so i can go to the course which i really want.

She is blaming for flirting with another girl when im not even flirting with that girl. The truth is she is falling for me & im totally not fallen for her. Just because she call me baby & all those words, you think i will be fallen for her & start to flirt with her? If you really think im still that type of guy, you're Wrong. You should see how many guys she called baby and all those sweet words. & you know, its already a week u treat me like wth. Im just being patient. I just need to be alone now, without anyone texting or calling me. I dont want to talk about this complicated relationship anymore. It makes my head go stressy.

Seriously, I need to start training, getting fit & be at my best again. I need to be ready for Challenge Cup. & i really need to fight my position for the Challenge Cup which will start on 18 October. & im seriously wanna score more goals.

As you all know my prelims result are bad. People keep asking me why am i still playing for HUFC when my N's has started. Should I blame soccer if i was to do badly in my N levels, like what other people would conviniently do? Well, i dont really think so. Everyone has an equal 24 hours in their everyday life. What matters is how you manage your time. Some people choose to watch the television when they're free. Some people choose to read while some would just spend time in front of the computer. & people can spend hours doing these things. But I choose to play soccer. & that's my choice. It's really no different than any other activity. So i dont think soccer should be responsible if i didnt do well. So thats my answer to those people who keep asking me.

Edited Pictures ~!